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why why why.
am i the fool or are you? i didnt get the chance to say bye. but i don't want to. i'd like to say cya later, but thats not going to happen. maybe if i pretended i didnt feel this way long enough i could believe it. but then much in the same way why can't you. why can't you feel it. why do i feel it. why wont you concede. its because there are so many question but no answers, i just had to close this chapter put it away. because its too painful to see it. i want to say fuck it we'll just stay as we are. and things will work out. but it hasn't worked out. for me at least. and its selfish for me to do this, but its also selfish of you to want me to go on like that. it hurts so bad. i, as much as you, dont want things to turn out like this. but it has. with neither getting anything. don't hope. i dont want to know anything more about you. i dont want to know how you did for your A levels, i dont want to know who you're with, i dont want to know who you married, i dont even want to know if you are all right. unless you are on the verge of death, dont tell me. because i will try my utmost to exorcise everything i know of you. its not possible, but i can at least try. don't leave a comment on this. just read it and so be it. so while you hope for that call from me one day, i too will hope for a call from you.
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